It's 12:30pm on Easter Sunday; the house is quiet and I can't sleep. All I can think about is how I wish we could go back and have a do-over of today. I wish today looked completely different than it did. It started with a thunderstorm, and steamed forward with Will getting a stomach bug, missing church, Caroline having a big tumble--complete with a bloody lip--and it ended with me, sick as a dog, on the couch...willing bedtime to come so I could rest. It was a hard day.
I finally got some sleep and started to feel better. But the downside to an early bedtime is insomnia. So as I'm reflecting on our difficult day--a day that was supposed to be a happy memory--I feel myself slipping down the slope of not-met expectations & comparison. Thieves of joy. I start looking on Facebook and Instagram, thinking of how we didn't...
-Get the perfect family picture--or any family picture for that matter!
-Have the babies in beautiful clothes--we did until Will got sick on them! Caroline stayed in her beautiful Easter dress, though. :)
-Have a big Easter Bunny/Basket moment--Red Flag #1 that Will was really sick.
-Have a awesome egg hunt--we tried our best with an indoor one!
-Do family activities, bible time,etc...--we were thankful to just get through the day!
-Eat yummy food--Will & I tried our best with our sick tummies!
The list could go on and on. Comparison really is my thief of joy. But then, a little voice (the holy spirit) reminded me...it's not about any of that. It's not about pictures, or clothes, or any of those insignificant things. It's about my savior. Conquering death. Redeeming my sin. Rising from the grave....That's what Easter is about.
So, I learned a hard lesson today. Part of me wished for a do-over, but in reality, I wouldn't change a thing. Because I was taught what Easter is truly about. And I hope that in years to come, I never forget it.
And, for those who enjoy pictures (mom!), here are the few we took...
Happy Easter!!
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